hiding

Here I am ready to take one more baby step into the unknown. The only way I allay my anxiety is by trying to focus on everything that isn't changing. But what is that? Maybe it is more important to know it than to describe it. If I described a close friend what would I have achieved? It would be better if I could introduce her to you. I have friends who I really believe would take to each other but for one reason or another I have been unable to arrange for them to meet. I can talk all I want about how compatible they might be but so what? I think most of my talk is useless. I feel the least like myself when I'm talking. And writing isn't much better. For example, how much can you really learn about me by reading this blog? I hide behind words I think. There must be a better way to communicate. It would probably require courage and creativity. Any ideas?